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Crush Count
Feb. 5th, 2004 02:13 amGuys (Actual): 2 ... actually more.
Guys (Self-Convinced): A few lately.
Girls (Actual): 0
Girls (Self-Convinced): Like uh, 4 or 5.
And this score card doesn't say what I wanted to say. Woops. >_>
I was going to say, for someone who struggles to believe these crushes on guys are real, I sure spend a lot of time in denial... and avoiding looking at them... etc >_>;;;
There's this guy who I met a couple weeks ago, who came to the bar after the Club Meeting tonight. He's Cute, and charismatic... But... 4 years older, (2 Academic Years older), straight (presumably), etc. etc.
Went to "Queeries" today (FINALLY), but had to go to the aforementioned meeting at 7. Arrgh.
Verdulum was there. Uhm.. yeah. I found it a bit awkward only because I had never told him I was going to the centre. But, mehh. It's not like he can be SURPRISED or anything... ^^;;; Other than the fact that I'm not being a spazzy baby about this any more. or something >_>
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Smiley Dictionary:
>_> or <_< -- looking away ; - sweatdrop (angst, embarassment, etc..) ;;; - many sweatdrops ^^ = :) Enjoy. -- Despite the fact that Verdulum KNEW that I was... uhm... asexual, gay, uh, whatever the hell I am... I feel like such a kid around him. So I'm almost glad we didn't really interact (which is BAD, as I mean, he and Gen were like the 2 best friends I had last year -- that attended CU, anyway.) I hate being such a kid, being so innocent. However, I'm not going to throw away my innocence, because that will not make me grow up.
Guys (Self-Convinced): A few lately.
Girls (Actual): 0
Girls (Self-Convinced): Like uh, 4 or 5.
And this score card doesn't say what I wanted to say. Woops. >_>
I was going to say, for someone who struggles to believe these crushes on guys are real, I sure spend a lot of time in denial... and avoiding looking at them... etc >_>;;;
There's this guy who I met a couple weeks ago, who came to the bar after the Club Meeting tonight. He's Cute, and charismatic... But... 4 years older, (2 Academic Years older), straight (presumably), etc. etc.
Went to "Queeries" today (FINALLY), but had to go to the aforementioned meeting at 7. Arrgh.
Verdulum was there. Uhm.. yeah. I found it a bit awkward only because I had never told him I was going to the centre. But, mehh. It's not like he can be SURPRISED or anything... ^^;;; Other than the fact that I'm not being a spazzy baby about this any more. or something >_>
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Smiley Dictionary:
>_> or <_< -- looking away ; - sweatdrop (angst, embarassment, etc..) ;;; - many sweatdrops ^^ = :) Enjoy. -- Despite the fact that Verdulum KNEW that I was... uhm... asexual, gay, uh, whatever the hell I am... I feel like such a kid around him. So I'm almost glad we didn't really interact (which is BAD, as I mean, he and Gen were like the 2 best friends I had last year -- that attended CU, anyway.) I hate being such a kid, being so innocent. However, I'm not going to throw away my innocence, because that will not make me grow up.
